Introducing.....

Elizabeth Anne Smith, Esq.!

Ok, yes that is just me... and yes that is a picture of me from a while ago... and you may not think that this is anything special, but I am now an Esquire.  That's right folks, I passed the NJ bar exam and am official a lawyer and can put Esq. after my name!!  I can't even begin to tell you how relieved I am to have passed and to now be able to focus on finding a job in NJ.  As some of you may already know, when I found out I did not pass Delaware I was pretty down in the dumps and had a hard time rebounding from it because well, I studied my butt off and was really disappointed in myself for not passing.  I can now say that although I am still disappointed about Delaware, I am absolutely, positively ecstatic about passing NJ.  I am seriously floating on cloud 9 right now!

My New Car

I also recently leased a new car as my old car all but died on me and was not in a drivable condition.  This is a picture of my brand new, shiny 2011 Jetta :)  I need to figure out a name for her (or him?) but nothing has come to me just  yet... suggestions are more than welcome!  I am seriously in love with the fact that I no longer have to worry about whether or not my car will break down when I'm trying to get to work, go to the grocery store, get gas, etc.  For the first time in years I really don't have to worry about my car breaking on me and it feels great!

That's about all that is new in my life.  I know I've been completely MIA from the blogging world these past two weeks, but I've been working an insane amount trying to save up money now that I have a car payment to worry about... plus I've been on the hunt for a lawyer job, so I've been super busy.  BUT now that I know I passed the NJ bar exam and I have my lease payment covered for next month I can try to get back in to the wonderful world of blogging!

Worrying on Wednesday

If one more person asks me about tomorrow I might scream.  Tomorrow is the big day... a.k.a. the day I found out whether or not I passed the Delaware Bar Exam.  And I also might scream if one more person tells me that they "know" that I passed the exam.  There is no way that they can know... because I don't even know.

The more that people tell me that they "know" that I passed the more nervous I get.  Every time that someone tells me that they "know" I passed I feel like I am going to let them down if I didn't pass.  Of course the love of my life said it best in a text he sent me that said "Oh girlfriend.  The people that care won't care how you did on the bar."  Although it was comforting to hear him say that, it doesn't make me any less nervous about tomorrow.

I know that whether or not I passed that life will go on and that I will be ok.  The only thing that stinks is that if I didn't pass that pretty much kills my chances of getting a job in Delaware this year because I have to wait until next July to take it again.  And there really is a good chance that I didn't pass because Delaware has a passage rate of around 54%... which means I basically have a 1 in 2 chance of passing... which really makes me nervous because I know sooooooo many people that took the exam, which makes me feel like I must have failed.

I'm trying really hard not to be cynical, but as the day gets closer it gets harder and harder to stay positive.  I know there is nothing I can do about the results now, but say a little prayer for me if you can that I survive tomorrow whether I get good or bad news!