Last week it was time for me to sit down and take my 3rd bar exam within a years time. And when I say bar exam I mean the bar exam that will decide whether or not I can be an attorney in Pennsylvania, not a bar exam that involves passing some test to become a bartender (because yes, when I told someone the other night that I had taken the bar exam their immediate response was... "awesome! you're going to be a bartender now?"). The exam was tough... I almost want to say that it was as tough as Delaware's because this time I didn't have a course to go along with my studying, but it really wasn't THAT tough. I am however worried that I didn't do well because I know that on a couple of the questions I definitely used Delaware law because well that's what I know best. The MBE (Multistate Bar Exam) was very contracts heavy this time around, which is NOT good for me because I never actually learned contracts while I was in school. That's what happens when you have a professor from Ghana who is VERY hard to understand and has never really taught before. Don't get me wrong, this guy was a GENIUS... BUT he did NOT know how to communicate ANYTHING with his students. So now begins the wait... until October... for results to come out.
Besides this bar exam... I am actually now studying to pass my bartender test. I have been unable to find a job as a lawyer for the past year now... and although I have not given up hope at finding a job, I am beginning to get a bit discouraged. I got offered a bartending position at the restaurant I work at, so I'm in training to become a bartender and hoping that it will net me a little bit more money than serving has so that I can start to get myself on my feet. This week begins round 2 of sending out resumes to various firms, but I just can't seem to get my hopes up because well I feel like I'm just never going to get a job. (Sorry for being such a Debbie Downer in this post, but I just have a lot of pent up feelings.)
I've also been feeling really insecure about my relationship with MD these past few weeks. I mean I know the guy still loves me, but recently I've been questioning just how much. I don't like having these doubts, but I think it is just because of all the other stressers in my life that I'm starting to question EVERYTHING nowadays.
Alright, well it is off to the gym and then to work on resume stuff for a bit before heading in for a fun-filled night at work. To end this post on a happy note, check out Little Miss Momma's blog for a fabulous giveaway! She is giving away a Tiffany heart ring here and it is super simple to be entered to win. And you definitely want to check out her blog because it is AMAZING... I think Ashley's blog is one of the few that no matter what I make sure to read EVERY SINGLE DAY! And I don't even know this woman... but from what I see, she is pretty fantastic!